Sometimes the days go by that have to be filled with something… I must admit it takes a while until I get out of bed and make myself suitable for daylight. Everything takes three times as long now. And if I don’t hurt myself, it’s already a success.
Then the exercises, from the speech therapist – I read my book aloud to practice my voice, then two pages of “swing exercises” from OT, then balance exercises, 30 minutes cycling (I will soon no longer be able to ride because I have concerns that I fall off the bike), then go out with Nordic Walking poles which looks pretty stupid, for that reason I go into the woods, nobody can see it, and still better than with the walker.
A day goes by like this. If I make something to eat, you almost have to renovate the kitchen afterwards, because everything falls out of my hand three times. Going to the supermarket, PT or GP is already a big undertaking, what should be planned. My dizziness and walking problems have also got worse in the last time, I also feel sick from the eternal “carousel driving”. So, only slowly.
I had an event last week. I would have to return my leasing car and drive to the dealer which is almost 100 km away. I drive a BMW all my life, that’s over now. I don’t drive a motorway any more anyway, so over country roads – which was already adventurous enough. Of course I took my good friend Birgit <3 with me, because I don’t dare to take such a long trip alone. When I returned my car, I didn’t think much deeper about it, it gets melancholic… Otherwise we spent a nice day at the place that lies at the “Chiemsee” and we decided to do something like that again.
At the end of the day we got on the wrong bus and made a long walk, which I would not have done without Birgit on the stick. I think I have to hurt myself a couple of times to change to the walker – but I’m too vain to do that.
At the end of the day I gave my friend my bike – I’m really happy that I can give her something – and so my bunch of keys gets smaller and smaller. I try not to think deeply into it, otherwise one despairs, but this lousy illness takes away so slowly one after the other…
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