Help, I damage my own belongings!

So slowly there is no good and healthy cup, plate or glass in my household, I succeed with my poor fine motor skills and shaky hands to break everything, or to create a lot of messes or cracks. I don’t drink out of elegant glasses anymore – I am afraid that I will break them or knock my teeth out. Because when I take a swing with the glass, the drink often ends up rudely in my face, sometimes in my T-shirt, around my neck or behind me on the floor. That is the disadvantage of an independent life. When I make something to eat, I have to be careful, that the contents of the pan do not land next to the plate, when I stir something to keep the pot from flying off the stove… Handling hot things and knives requires the highest concentration! When I pour something into a cup, make sure that the contents do not land next to it.

Eating with knife and fork is only possible with simple things, like a steak. Do not do eat anything with bones. This would guarantee that the good piece would fly off the plate, and possibly land in the face of the person sitting next to it.

Loose pieces, which I bring to my mouth with my hand, can also be adventurous, because who knows if I will find my mouth. This can look especially interesting with cake pieces with icing sugar. 

A visit to a restaurant requires concentration, and what I order must be well planned. Preferably something in bite-sized pieces. So the choice does not depend on what I feel like, but on what I can eat with as little fuss as possible. And of course, no spills. Especially not spill it on myself. Order drinks, especially in simple glasses. Do not knock them over, and drink them as smoothly as possible. Preferably with both hands. All these movements should look as normal as possible. I can do this with great concentration, because if I act out, nobody will go out with me.

How everything looks like at home, only I know. Sometimes the food or drink lands on the floor and I curse and have to bend down all the time. Again and again a plate or cup breaks.

So I increasingly use plastic things – with all my love for the environment. I drink from plastic cups mainly for the reason not to hurt myself.

Clothing must also be well thought out. I know how I used to shake my head over bustiers. What kind of women are they who wear a love-killer like that? Now that opening and closing the bra is becoming increasingly difficult with the tiny fastenings, I understand. I don’t wear anything with buttons either, and zippers are also becoming increasingly difficult to grip. I prefer shoes to slip into, binding is also becoming problematic, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. Buttoning a blouse or shirt? Only if the buttons are the size of a plate. I know that even before I was diagnosed I had a weakness, so I buttoned the blouses in advance and then slipped in.

These are the disadvantages if you have mainly “motor symptoms”, my neurologist says my symptoms are mainly cerebellar. So as far as the cerebellum is concerned. Mostly fine motor skills, balance and speech.

How long I can keep my household running by myself is the question, but I definitely want to keep it running for a while. You also learn to find “another way”, and above all to do everything slowly.

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